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Doing Life Together

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Something I'm consistently amazed of is how often I need to be reminded of how relational God  is. So, it's no surprise that I was surprised that it's been something God was/has been speaking to me during my time a DTS.

I've grown up in church so you would think I would have a better grip on this concept, but as I'm often reminded I never. I honestly think this will be one of those things that God will having to keep reminding and growing me in for the rest of my life.

Specifically what God has been showing me during my time here at DTS, is how much God cares about my creative process. He wants to co-create with me.

He actually wants to be apart of what I create. That honestly still blows my mind. God, the Creator of the universe wants to work with me? Yeah, he does. He does, because he cares about me.

Before DTS I had a grasp on this concept, but my perspective and answer wouldn't be the same. Actually, to be completely honest my thoughts almost would been performance based instead of relationship based.  Since God gave me this gift, I need to glorify Him with it.  Instead of How can I work with Him to give Him the most glory.

The thing that I'm learning though, is that God cares about the details. He cares about all the little details. I mean if you even just look some of the old testament books concerning The Law [Leviticus, Numbers, Deuteronomy] you can see how much he cares about the details. In fact there are so many details that often times our eyes want to glaze over when we are reading them.

He cares about us, and he wants to walk beside us in our life. He doesn't just want me to glorify him, He wants me to make him part of the process too, because He cares.

He doesn't want this to be to be a one sided relationship. He cares and loves us more deeply than we can imagine.

So what part of your life you can let God walk along side you in?  

Like I said earlier for me it has been my creative process, and I can already see the fruits in that. So I encourage you to do so as well.                                                                                                                         


Hey Friends, Thanks for reading my blog! It was short this week, but also something close to my heart that I've been learning! Please feel free to leave comments about what you thought. See you next time.

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The [Actual] Act of Surrendering (surrendering pt.2)

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Hey Friends,

How do I even start with this blog?  Well, how about God is Good. All the time, no matter what.

So I wasn't even going to write a blog on this because of how hard and vulnerable it is, but sometimes Jesus likes to push into hard things, so here it is.

You know how I talked about surrendering in my last post? Honestly I think God loves to be Ironic with me because three days later Jesus asked me to surrender something huge in my life. It was tied to my identity, my passion, and (what I thought was) my livelihood.

So I did.

Well, eventually I did that is. This honestly was the hardest thing I have ever had to do.

"This God, why this? You can have everything else but this"? "But I need this, I really like this" Is what I kept trying to rationalize. I kept making excuse after, excuse after, excuse. Yet, I knew deep down that I needed to surrender.

 I wish I could say that when I did it was pretty and clean. That I was so happy to be obedient, but it wasn't like that at all I was a mess.                                                                    

The reason why it was so so hard is because it brought all the deep ugliness in my heart to the surface. Pride, Identity, Fear, etc. They all came rising to the surface when I finally gave in.  I had to be willing to fully surrender the things in my heart, trusting that God is faithful to restore and heal.

God had to reveal these parts of my heart in me in a big way, for me to pay attention to the fact that they were there.

Surrendering is freaking hard, but it's so good and so sweet.  It sure doesn't feel good at first, but it is.

Throughout the entire struggle of being willing to be obey I had this phrase going through my head that I had spoken to someone the day before "If God allows your husband to die, will you still be able to say He is good?" God prompted in my heart "Hey you remember yesterday? If I ask you to give this up, will you still be able to call me good?"

Thankfully the answer to that is YES, because If I can't say yes to that, I'm not really trusting God right? I haven't actually surrendered. If I don't surrender, I'm choosing to be the god in my life. Choosing to control my life. I'm trusting myself more than trusting the God of the universe.

He is EVERYTHING. Yet, it's so hard to give up just SOMETHING in my life.

We sing all of these songs of surrendering and giving all we have to Him, but do we actually?

Do we actually allow God to be God of our entire life? or is there a line that we won't let him cross? Being like "here God you can have everything, except this". "I need this". "This is too hard".  "I'm fine". "You don't need to take this". Except when we say those things, what we're actually doing is telling Jesus that we don't trust him enough to give him these things. That's the reality.

You either trust God with your whole heart, with everything you have or you don't. There is no grey area. If you're holding onto something and not willing to give it God than you are making that "thing" holier than God. You might not realize that you're doing that, or you might know deep down like me that you are. We're making these things idols in our lives. Whether or not we as "Good Christians" would like to admit it. That's not okay, it's straight up sin. 

For me personally the hardest part was not the "giving up" up part (though that was hard). It was when I surrendered, I no longer wore a mask. I was bare. All my brokenness and sin that was in my heart came to light.  That's hard no matter what way we look at it, we hate to look at our humanity because often times it shows just how un-Christ like we are. We're human. We're Broken. We sin.

YET, that is also the most beautiful part. When we can strip ourselves of pride enough to see the truth of ourselves, we can finally allow Jesus to fully take our heart.  When we lay ourselves down we finally allow him to meet us where we're at. We don't have to hide anymore. When we see that He is The only source of healing to our brokenness and our sin. We can find freedom in Him. He loves us no matter, and He loves when we his children can see that and can truly accept it.

Because He is better. He is simply better.  He is better everything we own, everything we love, everything we dream about; He is better.

So here is my challenge: [and it's not easy believe I just went through it and I will continue to go through because what i'm realizng more and more. Is that surrender isn't a one time process, it's daily pick up your cross kind of thing. However sometimes, it might have more weight than others]

What do you need to surrender? What have you been keeping from God? It could be a valuable possession, a person, a sin, a hurt, a dream etc. Anything that you're not allowing God to touch.

 

Surrender it to today, don't wait. Choose your freedom.

God loves you so so much! He cares about you deeply, you are his chosen child. Yeah, I know it sounds cheesy but he doesn't want you to carry this burden anymore. Yeah, it will be hard. Dying to sin and self are painful, but Christ is not. He's waiting for you with open arms to come to him. I encourage you to pray about this, and talk to someone you trust to keep accountable and to keep encouraging you through this process.

Now this doesn't mean you have to sell everything you own or do something super radical. Though God can call you do something like that, it just comes down where your heart is. Are you willing to let God in? Are you willing to Listen if he tells you something you don't want to hear? Are you willing to give it up for and to him?

 

"Oh the Joy I've found,                                                                                                                 surrendering my crowns                                                                                                                 at the feet of the King,                                                                                                                    who surrendered everything " - "Have it all" by Bethel Music

 


Hey! Thanks for reading my blog, It's a big piece of my heart. Please reach out and ask questions, I would love to hear from you!

-Mikayla

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Surrender // Faithfulness

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Hey Friends!

Its been 28 days of being here. Crazy right? During this time I've seen God's faithfulness over and over again.  He's really been showing me what it means to live fully surrendered even if it's a slow process.  Whether it's about not worrying about my future, or something simple to be alone on base (this is hard guys, you don't even understand) yet I'm feeling led go to talk to a friend.

But surrendering is hard right? It’s human nature to want to believe what you are doing is the right thing, especially when we base the “right thing” off of feelings. I think surrender is one of the hardest things for me, yet it should be the easiest. Right? Giving up all my dreams, desires, plans, and seems too much and intimidating.

Yet, I'm giving them up to the Creator of the universe! The One who conquered death! The one Being that knows everything that has already happened and everything that is to come! Shouldn’t that seem safer? Because it is, it’s the safest thing to do.

So why does never feel like that?

I personally think the reason it is so hard to surrender is because the act of surrendering is a two fold matter : The first is laying down your pride and letting go just enough to realize that you’re not always going to be right (because let's be real most of the time you're not) and your plan isn’t always best plan, and the second is being vulnerable enough to trust that He is good and he will bring about what is the best for us (whether or not we think it is what is best for us)

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What I'm realizing is that is either Surrender or Control.

So, surrender. We're not God. We don't have control over everything, we barely have control over the little things in life (like washing our hair, you girls know the feeling). So, stand in surrender.

So that's the hard part, do you know what's the best part?

How faithful he is to meet us when we surrender. God has never broken a Promise. Never. If you look through the bible you will never find a broken promise.  He is the most trustworthy.

He is faithful.

He'll meet us where we are at. So let's all surrender more and more and see his faithfulness more and more. Let's rejoice in his faithfulness and peace.

 

Thanks for reading my thoughts! If you want bonus points go check out this verse which is one one of the ones that this post was based off of :

Hebrews 10: 23-24

 

 

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Hey Friend

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Hey Friend,

So if you don't know anything about me or what I'm doing for the next couple of months, this is probably a good place to start.

I'm Mikayla, or Mika if you want to call me that. I'm passionate about telling the stories that are on God's heart and mine. I'm currently at YWAM San Diego/Baja doing a DTS to learn how to act on that passion. What you will find on this blog is what Jesus is teaching me, stories of some amazing people, and just some general life updates about living in another country. I can't wait to see what God helps me create in this time, so make sure you follow along! 

 

Talk to you soon,

Mikayla

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